the never ending question
What'll you do when you get lonely
And nobody's waiting by your side?
You've been running and hiding much too long.
You know it's just your foolish pride.
[Chorus:]
Layla, you've got me on my knees.
Layla, I'm begging, darling please.
Layla, darling won't you ease my worried mind.
I tried to give you consolation
When your old man had let you down.
Like a fool, I fell in love with you,
Turned my whole world upside down.
[Chorus]
Let's make the best of the situation
Before I finally go insane.
Please don't say we'll never find a way
And tell me all my love's in vain.
--ERIC CLAPTON
recently met someone who i was very attracted to, a very handsome young guy who, like so many guys i meet, asked why i was stil single ... of course, i bounced the question right back to avoid giving an answer ... but the question always gets me thinking and every time the answer is slightly different ... today the real answer is that i was foolishly waiting for someone to be ready ... but beside that, the truth is that i am looking for someone who can show consistency in feeling, word and action ... beside that, i suppose love ...
but again, i am coming to the painful realization that love means jack shit for gays ... this very sweet guy said to me "you're nice, handsome, smart, and have a big cock" ... and i thought 'yeah, and i think the big cock is the winner here' ...
i see guys who are complete assholes and keep proving it over and over with their actions, but have the big cock and that always wins the race--and i know.. all you have to do is say something like, 'i love how my cock feels up your hole' and you have them knocking at your door or thye'll be begging you to come over... "come over any time... I;ll be here" LOL ... do i want to be in a relationship with someone who settles for me because i am a dark skin top who dominates him and has the big cock ... no!
I wasted 8 years of my life doing that with a white bubble butt bottom who thought he was superior to me but liked the dynamic of having an 'inferior' latino dominate him with his big cock ... so for 8 years i played the game and then i grew up ... lol ... then fell for someone who seems to have the same traits--Jesus! what karma am i paying ...
now as a mature adult i want love and romance ... why is it so hard to find that? are there any guys out there who fantasize about having a long-lasting, loving, romantic relatioship or even affair? or is it just me? is that like such a queer thing? or am i destined to take my macho dominance and find a cute, nice enough bottom who wants to play the fantasy of the dominated sub? Had a short lived affair with a very cute sub, bubble butt Irish guy, just my type ... found his body odor a little off but could have worked with him if he had not been so mental about everything ... it became too much work so i gave it up ... sigh!
now been having this on-off affair with this young guy who likes my dominant side and likes the dynamic but then is emotionally off ... is all on and hot and bothered before then basically turns off after he comes ... crazy!--our last time was the last time ... that type of crap is so unhealthy if that is the only way he can relate to a partner ...
damn and double fucking double damn!!
And nobody's waiting by your side?
You've been running and hiding much too long.
You know it's just your foolish pride.
[Chorus:]
Layla, you've got me on my knees.
Layla, I'm begging, darling please.
Layla, darling won't you ease my worried mind.
I tried to give you consolation
When your old man had let you down.
Like a fool, I fell in love with you,
Turned my whole world upside down.
[Chorus]
Let's make the best of the situation
Before I finally go insane.
Please don't say we'll never find a way
And tell me all my love's in vain.
--ERIC CLAPTON
recently met someone who i was very attracted to, a very handsome young guy who, like so many guys i meet, asked why i was stil single ... of course, i bounced the question right back to avoid giving an answer ... but the question always gets me thinking and every time the answer is slightly different ... today the real answer is that i was foolishly waiting for someone to be ready ... but beside that, the truth is that i am looking for someone who can show consistency in feeling, word and action ... beside that, i suppose love ...
but again, i am coming to the painful realization that love means jack shit for gays ... this very sweet guy said to me "you're nice, handsome, smart, and have a big cock" ... and i thought 'yeah, and i think the big cock is the winner here' ...
i see guys who are complete assholes and keep proving it over and over with their actions, but have the big cock and that always wins the race--and i know.. all you have to do is say something like, 'i love how my cock feels up your hole' and you have them knocking at your door or thye'll be begging you to come over... "come over any time... I;ll be here" LOL ... do i want to be in a relationship with someone who settles for me because i am a dark skin top who dominates him and has the big cock ... no!
I wasted 8 years of my life doing that with a white bubble butt bottom who thought he was superior to me but liked the dynamic of having an 'inferior' latino dominate him with his big cock ... so for 8 years i played the game and then i grew up ... lol ... then fell for someone who seems to have the same traits--Jesus! what karma am i paying ...
now as a mature adult i want love and romance ... why is it so hard to find that? are there any guys out there who fantasize about having a long-lasting, loving, romantic relatioship or even affair? or is it just me? is that like such a queer thing? or am i destined to take my macho dominance and find a cute, nice enough bottom who wants to play the fantasy of the dominated sub? Had a short lived affair with a very cute sub, bubble butt Irish guy, just my type ... found his body odor a little off but could have worked with him if he had not been so mental about everything ... it became too much work so i gave it up ... sigh!
now been having this on-off affair with this young guy who likes my dominant side and likes the dynamic but then is emotionally off ... is all on and hot and bothered before then basically turns off after he comes ... crazy!--our last time was the last time ... that type of crap is so unhealthy if that is the only way he can relate to a partner ...
damn and double fucking double damn!!