phoenixility

I don't know
why I
I do understand the nuances of a self
the insecurity, the low self worth
coupled with self love and willfulness
it's the instinct to live that keeps us moving
and it is the same instinct that makes us love
we can't avoid it, we can't erase it, we can't forget it
and I was foolish enough to step on destiny
I said, "Fuck it all ... it's all bullshit"
and thought I could just as easily erase it all
and start over ... but there are signs that we can't ignore
there are markers that we can't deny
there is the force that draws the spirits like a magnet
that makes the words unnecessary (yes even there I chose to be in control)
and even now ... it's all there ... I can box it away
you can box it away ... but to what end ..
you hold the pieces as do I that fit the puzzle
we have to face ourselves ... I have done so like walking on coals
and we have to face each other ... the end marked a new beginning
not destruction but rebirth