fragment #3

that i miss you everyday, well, it's no surprise
you made your way through my walls, even the ones
that I thought untouched
and in all the days that passed you made a house in my heart
you occupied spaces that had been empty
and you made new spaces, unique to your nature

in my memories, remembrances, I feel a longing
desires even that overwhelm me
and, no, it isn't my loneliness conjuring you--
I embraced my loneliness long, long before you
so much so it was almost romantic--
no one was to come between us.
But so you did, more so than a fantasy
the one that my dreams had cast forth for me

and yes, there were voids, silences, disappointments
the patterns that happen in a life void of a love--
a hard path to learn, to admit to the dance
a well learned pas de deux
but we grow and we learn, we uncover the broken notes
and hard as it is, must learn a new dance
remove all the masks and more so the well rehearsed steps

take a step or two back, even more than a few
look deep and look far, beyond all that we know
take stock off all that was built and was learned
there is more to the path ...