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Love finds us where we are, not where we were. -- Bob Goff

there is a life we dream about, the one we live inside our heads ... the life where the latest fashion trends and the well decorated apartment have little importance; in fact, they often do not even exist ... the life I speak of fills our spirit with joy... it's simple and doesn't require a circus or a troupe of entertainers to make us feel happy, content or fulfilled ... in this life there are a few people that matter to us, there is perhaps even a significant other who is happy when he sees we're happy, whose face lights with joy upon seeing us ... there is an energy that grows within us and makes us feel connected to others and to the universe ... in this life, joy and laughter are our companions ... no conflict ever threatens to overwhelm or separate ... this inner life seems like a fantasy--and yet, we just have to choose to switch it on, we need only have the courage to live it ... to let go of our fears, our resentments, our regrets and let this defensive mask that w...

There is no passion to be found playing small - in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living. Nelson Mandela 'Content' is a word that has never sat well with me. Like 'maturity'. They are two words I've never liked. I think they imply some sort of decay. A settling. Elvis Costello I think a lot of people settle with comfort. I've kinda pushed my whole life not to do that. There's nothing wrong with settling, it's definitely an easier life than the one I've chosen to live. Aubrey O'Day Happiness, to some, elation; Is, to others, mere stagnation. Amy Lowell

Déjà vu is a tricky word ... mostly because everyone has an understanding of it ... it literally means "already seen" ... and it's that feeling we get when we are in the middle of an event that we seem to be able to remember ... or appears as if we're remembering it ... to me it has always been a bad omen as it would mean that I am repeating a life--in other words, I'm spiritually stuck ... every so often I get that feeling, or I used to ... not so much anymore ... now I feel uncertainty, a certain incongruity, a certain "what/where/why"--also not a good thing-- life should feel right ... for a long time my life felt like it was flowing ... some might say complacency; I say that I was walking the right path ... then suddenly it all started feeling wrong, disconnected ... as if truths were being ignored, hidden, not said--and this goes in many direction: with myself, others ... But why Déjà vu and not kismet? of course, dictionaries have poor translatio...

Hi G==>. The Minor Arcana represent your choices and actions throughout the realization of your destiny… The Cups represent your personal outlook with respect to your emotional feelings and your tendency to think with your heart rather than with your head… This includes the connection to love, friendships and relationships which exert such strong pull on your decisions. You may be spontaneous or slow in your reactions, depending on what your heart relays to you… The Birth Of Aphrodite In Mythic Tarot, you meet Aphrodite (the goddess of love) and she is rising from the sea. In the Ace of Cups, there is a storm bubbling in the sea, the storm represents the birth of Aphrodite. Aphrodite holds an enormous golden cup that represents a sudden spiritual awakening, a message that will be revealed to you about your love life! This awakening is connected to love, and it reflects the time when you are ready to open up your heart, with giving and receiving of unconditional love. The gol...

"One loves because one lives. There is no reason for loving." -Paulo Coelho

A lesser-known but influential psychoanalytical theory is control mastery theory. According to this view, people who develop psychological problems have an unconscious belief in their own unworthiness, developed as a result of the way that neglectful or abusive parents treated them. These people constantly blame themselves for their mistakes, even those that weren’t their fault, because they're so used to being blamed. They then go on to engage in behaviors that actively thwart themselves just to “prove” that their parents or significant others were right about them; or, more commonly, to remain stuck where they are. I know at least one such individual: step 1: "I'm stuck where I am because of my allergies ..." step 2: "Been really good. I'm feeling much better." step 3: "Feeling crappy again. Ate something I shouldn't have." ... repeat cycle endlessly with allergies, with FB/FWB, therapy, and on and on and on ... people keep doing the...

the evening falls quietly again another Friday that surprises, the pieces of this or that day hang the procreational directive is triggered and frantic the hands call the FB or FWB or searches, searches the many faces across the Grindr Scruff Mister Manhunt Adam4Adam screens filled with the promise of a lonely moment with an intimate stranger the loveless play ignites and the body plays the part of body and the heart beats like an abated echo of many hungers the face smiles the lips savor the drink the body parts tingle in anticipation this is the night, this is the night when forlorn loves bloom the stillness of the dark filled with promise behind every corner the bulging familiar of strangers moves in unison the pollinated shadows will make their way home and the familiar strangers who play at lovers hold in their hands the longing hearts of their FB/FWB partners the warm bodies that dance on the precarious void of emotions the morning another reminders to be forgotte...

Romance and dimly-lit settings are so closely associated in our minds that we might automatically think a date will go better in the dark. If it weren’t for the belief that love requires darkness to bloom, modern-day candlemakers could go out of business. As it turns out, however, there are some people who are particularly likely to benefit from night’s shadows. Those individuals, with some of the so-called “dark triad” personality traits, may in fact have better luck finding a partner when the lights are in turned down. The dark triad in psychology refers to the combination of Machiavellianism (the tendency to coldly manipulate people), psychopathy (the lack of empathy and remorse) and narcissism (excessive self-focus). People high in all three of these qualities can be dangerous partners. As you might imagine, not only do they use people but they are exceptionally good at getting others to swallow their bait. For your own mental health, you'll likely want to stay away from pote...

to lose myself in the moment, the touch of another his breath that runs swiftly through my senses the warmth from his chest against mine the sweet softness of his reddened lips I taste his desire as I run my lips though his neck take his lobes in my mouth run down the chest pecs softness of his belly the small of his back offers yet more the fuzz on his mounds enticing through my body run bolts of lighting and my manhood owned in my lover's body II to lose myself again, again in a desires yet to happen the scents sounds smells the mind conjures the many dreams where the desired wanders in and out to find myself frozen in the moment tranced by waves of thoughts that break my will the ghostly energy that ignites the nerves and sends bolts of lighting to all my senses my body responds and my mind wanders freely in the realm of these waves of pleasure, oblivious to time, place and reason III to lose myself to find myself again facing the mirror, the hauntin...

Feeling so randomly thankful for so many people (friends, family, even strangers who have crossed my path just at the right time), places and even things that have made their way into my life ... and yet I feel nostalgic too ... but everything is connected/interconnected and, as always, we are where we're supposed to be at each step of the way .. I believe we're always paving the way for the next step we have to take ... the universe is too grand and the possibilities inexhaustible for our minds to capture and so we create limits ... letting go of those limits offers a greater world than we can ever imagine

the days day is more than the hours 24 says the clock, an arbitrary division the cyclical spin of the cycle of days is exempt in the workings of the brain the days the hours seconds years decades are a liquid sea of endless measure there is no beginning and no end in a thought or a feeling the mind is ever expanding ever growing the multiplication of moments is no longer the moment the facsimile of the faces and voices remain tattooed on the circuitry and the memory takes on the reality rivals the reality and usurps it and so we remember things just we remember them the echo that bounces off the heart becomes the heart; the sound, the energy of the heart is multiplied in a million sets of memories that play and replay the lonely brick that turns to a house becomes the world and so it is with the light's end that the dance begins again and another day shines form on the imagery of the spirit the ghosts that roam within are much more real than the spinning glo...

Everything is energy & that's all there is to it ... match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics. --Darryl Anka

Hi G*&^. Temperance calls today to remind you there is no such thing as separation. This card speaks to opposing forces merging together to create balance, harmony, and peace. You have reached a place where you know your peace comes from within. You remember that when you release limiting thoughts anything is possible. Life flows in synchronicity, and you are connected to this flow, you are connected to it all. You see the beauty in it all. You see that you do not have to give up something to obtain your goal; you merely have to find the right proportions to the equation. You remember that there is unity in all things. Even when you feel you may be seeing things from a disconnect, you know by remaining connected with in, it all unfolds exactly as it is meant to for your greatest good. You have been working very hard to reach this place. Now that you have arrived, you realize how much fun it all is. You feel excitement because you are living, you are being who you are mea...

Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man. Friedrich Nietzsche

Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit —Khalil Gibran

“It's not that you should never love something so much that it can control you. It's that you need to love something that much so you can never be controlled. It's not a weakness. It's your best strength.” ― Patrick Ness “You learned to run from what you feel, and that's why you have nightmares. To deny is to invite madness. To accept is to control.” ― Megan Chance “There are those whose primary ability is to spin wheels of manipulation. It is their second skin and without these spinning wheels, they simply do not know how to function. They are like toys on wheels of manipulation and control. If you remove one of the wheels, they'll never be able to feel secure, to be whole.” ― C. JoyBell C. "You can never control who you fall in love with, even when you're in the most sad, confused time of your life. You don't fall in love with people because they're fun. It just happens." ― Kirsten Dunst

What is the cost of being in an emotional manipulative relationship? Loss of self-esteem; increased anxiety and depression; a growing sense of hopelessness and helplessness; exhaustion; a sense of emptiness and increasing hurt; fear; and frustration. Emotionally dependent partners often feel trapped in relationships because of their sense of loyalty and reluctance to hurt the other person, no matter what that person has done. Instead of the reactions of fight-or-flight, most respond to danger, anger and hostility by shutting down. Their breathing becomes shallow, they freeze up, and wait for the danger to pass. This shutdown process makes thinking fuzzy, as muscles tense up, and even heart and digestion rates slow down. This reaction can result in physical problems such as migraines; indigestion and other intestinal problems; insomnia; neck, shoulder and back aches; and an overall sense of defeat.

Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darkness of other people. :: Carl Jung

there are no extras here, it has all been stored away the scent neatly packet in a series of bottles, each labeled  the voice in its own box--double tape on the edges to keep it all in it was more difficult to store away the items with inherent subtlety-- what to do with a gesture, a gaze? those have been captured in the mirror and the mirror covered with a long cloth it has been trickier, however, to store away the intangibles a moment, a thought, a feeling ... those have been wrapped  rice paper dipped in oil to preserve them more difficult still has been to inventory the random memories, the ones triggered by a place, a scent, a sound for those the storage space will have to be greater ... impossible, however, and we must all agree,  will be to gather the energies that elude our control nostalgia, want, desire and even love can't be concealed for those a greater storage space, such as a desert or ocean.   Sent from my iPad

the brain plays with us, it really does! ... buying bananas it hit me--the aroma of guavas ... small, pinkish yellow green guavas in a wicker basket sending off their scent to captivate ... and just like that I was transported to places I didn't know I remembered ... another life all too forgotten came rushing to the forefront of my thoughts and my eyes watered ... and I found myself laughing and telling the dumfounded girl behind the register how in the house of my childhood I would climb guava trees ... I did so not just to pick the ripest, sweetest ones ... but more so to be encapsulated in their scent ... the heavy summer air literally thick from the moisture that came from the beaches and the river nearby gave a stillness to the air that I have never felt again; and within that stillness the waves of ripe guava that trampled my senses and I climbed higher hoping to leave the ground behind. as with ripe guavas, the only fruit that will trigger such memories (you may read Marq...

I just think you should know that out of all, in all the world, You have my most favorite face. ::Tyler Knott Gregson

Love seeketh not itself to please, nor for itself hath any care, but for another gives its ease, and builds a Heaven in Hell's despair. ::William Blake

the clock tics, the hour ends as it begun the countless seconds, milliseconds that turn to nights and days the years that come and go the body seeks comfort and pleasure the heart that yearns for more the mind that tires the moments that are endless repetitions the question that we choose to ignore the hunger of spirit that triumphs and fails the road that ends in a a ditch the journey that ends in a meaningless sigh the weres that I would if I coulds the endless repetition of wants, wish, desires the meaningless compromises to settle for for the next best option the unfulfilled yearnings that revolve around the meaningless toil to then end where we began ... why then the journey?

Hi G=-=>. The Minor Arcana represents your choices and actions throughout the realization of your destiny… The Wands represent the spark plugs of the Tarot, the spark of creativity and the birth of an idea. The Wands are oriented toward action, growth and the realization of your dreams… The Story About Zeus In Mythic Tarot, you meet Zeus (the king of the gods, sky, weather patterns, and unexpected thunder bolts). Zeus was the ruler of Mount Olympus. In the Ace of Wands he stands in front of the snow-capped mountains (Mount Olympus). Zeus was married to Hera (the queen of the gods, and the goddess of women and marriage). In legend, Zeus had many wives and lovers, and fathered many children with his numerous affairs and cheating escapades. Although Zeus cheated on his wife, he was worshipped for his kindness and wisdom for others as he got older, he ruled with strong ethical morals. In the Ace of Wands, there is a ram with golden pelt draped over Zeus’s shoulder, the ram was s...

Illusion is needed to disguise the emptiness within. :: Arthur Erickson We cannot let another person into our hearts or minds unless we empty ourselves. We can truly listen to him or truly hear her only out of emptiness. :: M. Scott Peck Loving can cost a lot but not loving always costs more, and those who fear to love often find that want of love is an emptiness that robs the joy from life. :: Merle Shain To fake it is to stand guard over emptiness. :: Arthur Herzog

as a kid back in the old country .. lol. .. I remember there was a TV show called the usurpers... it was about these women who only liked men when they were attached or were interested in someone else ... once they had a guy, their interest in him would wane ... and I see there are people like that ... they show interest in others only when those people are attached or show interest in someone ... once they "take them away" from the other person, they lose interest ... and sometimes this happens in so-called "relationships" where one of the partners only shows interest in his "companion" when he seems interested in someone else--then he puts on the charm ... once he "takes him away" from the other, he loses interest --- and some people are either stupid or needy enough not to see that this is pure narcissism ... the person has no interest in them but more in the feeling of satisfaction they get from being someone's center of attention ... in ...

another friday night with another cup of coffee the tic tac toc that dances in my head the loom that spins echoes in my head won't stop another friday night in the repetitive chaos of silence the dreaded night that approaches like a gentle lover weaves the shadows that stream up and down the avenues another friday night wanting the touch of new patterns the threads of fantasies that lay before me, enticing me the mocking order of disorder in words and incantations another friday night were there is a longing to go to stay in a far away yet undetermined an unknown where the echoes take form and shape

Hi G-*-. What has been a source of stress for you lately? The Six of Swords shows that you may be feeling drained, low and possibly even exhausted. Perhaps work has been stressful, you may be under pressure in legal or financial matters, or perhaps you’ve been caught up in a hurtful relationship that is making you unhappy. Maybe you need a break to refresh and recharge? A break, time off or even a vacation would do you wonders. The Six of Swords is linked to travel, the sea and coastal places, so it could be that a well-deserved beach holiday, vacation or even honeymoon may be in your future. However, a short break may not be enough, depending on the problems you’re facing. You may soon have some tough decisions ahead and may be considering changing jobs, a longer-term move to a new location, or even leaving your relationship. These are all big decisions. This can be a scary place to be emotionally because the future seems unknown at this time. Should you hold on longer? Is the s...

The longer you dance with the devil, the longer you remain in hell.

entrtejidas las fibras de este espiritu con aquel otro fibras suntuosamente tenues se entrelazan en una danza invisible despiertan ansias y deseos inmunes al tiempo y la distancia una fuerza magna que crece con los dias y se nutre de la resistencia irresistible su magia; el tiempo, los dias, los hechos son uno en reflejos las parcas hilvanaron la tela que arropa nuestras almas. el destino fado cuya corriente nos arrastra