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a-dreaming

in dreams we meet, our bodies meet your sweet love scent igniting my desires your body's warmth against mine the feel of you under me feels all so new our lips a fire burning and you so new, stronger in the way you give yourself and I, my heart expanding in endless pleasure discovering every part of you

when it's time to call it quits!!!

51 Signs of an Unhealthy Relationship Toxic connections ring multiple alarms, if partners can only hear them. Post published by Alice Boyes Ph.D. on Feb 10, 2015 in In Practice My all-time most popular post on PsychologyToday.com is about 50 signs of a healthy relationship. Today, we look at the flipside—warning signs of a toxic relationship. While many relationships may display one or two of these, toxic relationships will often feature multiple alarm bells. Where I've written your partner read it as, you or your partner. Relationship Warning Signs You never turn to each other for emotional support. You look to other people first. Your partner actively tries to cut you off from your support network of friends and family. Your partner implies that you are stupid, or that they are "the smart one” in the relationship; they try to dissuade you from trying something new because “you probably won’t understand it.” Your partner doesn’t respect your an...

Transformation & Forgiveness

Hi G--. The Judgement card is related to the planet Pluto (transformation -- death and rebirth). Transformation does not mean that you’re going to experience a physical death, it means that you’re going to experience the death of a situation that needed to end. When Pluto is activated in your birth chart, or someone else’s birth chart, it will destroy something and rebuild it with a solid foundation. Pluto will help you transform your life with what is out of balance, and bring you back into balance again. You will not stay stuck in the baleful ghosts of the past, carrying around your old baggage, and what happened to you. You will go through a rebirth, and change your old way of thinking and your lifestyle. This planet is very small, but also very powerful. Pluto will help you transform your life and help you start your long-postponed new beginning that is waiting for you. The Path Of Judgement Represents Forgiveness... When You Hold Onto A Grudge For Another Person, You’re Fe...

a song playing

i heard a song, i heard a song playing in my head a song of love droning deep and wide the syncopated melodies breaking through my words i heard a song, i felt a song travel through my body the notes of lust, alto, contralto swaying through gliding through the senses i heard a song, i heard a song playing in my head music beyond the sound of day, the still of night the waves of rhythm drumming in my heart.

Dreams

to resonance of love, of romance desires that linger in memory's palate passion borne out of unfulfilled desires move and counter move of remembrance spirits intertwined by the force of destiny the persistence of energy sealing its pact with a kiss in the shadows of a dream

Quote of the Day

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. ::Steve Jobs

karma is not

karma is not irrevocable. karma is itself the door to freedom. in consciousness lies the act of liberation-- the karmic antidote, as it were. a man can free himself, find himself through the exercise of self-consciousness. once we achieve consciousness of the patterns the fallacies, the blockage that is trapping us then the work of spiritual cleanliness starts. it can be an active effort or a more subtle, subconscious path. Once our mind is elucidated, transformations starts.

Quote of the Day

One does not fall in or out of love. One grows in love. ::Ritu Ghatourey It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in. There are no 'exit' signs in love, there is only an 'on' ramp. ::Unknown

Repeat Repeat Repeat

It's all supposition... understanding, I mean The fear of an embrace--loneliness Holding on to insecurities--suicide Stuck in failed pattern--self-destruction Repeating failures--death by instalments Dysfunctional attachment--sickened spirit Loving the self--growth & commitment Loving & being loved--joy Love intertwined with physical--fulfilment It's all supposition... understanding, I mean

Activity log

Not surprisingly filled with contradictions The wants that I want to forget The wants that I want to remember The needs for today, the trite And it's too early for poetry anyhow A list of words Like the shopping list Or the deeper wounds of yesterday The happy memories too The love for the one I love Loving this or that person The simple hellos at a coffeeshop Or the memorable encounter, for me anyway That really means nothing, alas! And I wonder was that my final test? I failed obviously-it was too cold to remember the right words! Ah excuses! The steps that I lost against the ones That I gained The many goodbyes The attempted hellos The myriad other ways In which we will never casually meet again Or meet again as strangers Or, fears lost, as lovers, even Or miss each other again by this much It's a big city, I know The 8th ave strip is mine haha Writing about The many ways to say I love you The many ways to say goodbye Or the many conversations...

time

time slithers away like serpents on the desert sands tracing a sinuous web across our lives it eternally recommences, end and beginning the same a stream of zeros and ones in the machinery of the universe.

Energy & thought

If thoughts were avenues, corridors to track you down To meet you in some unsuspecting street The way by which I could yet touch you And conquer your heart with more than gazes If thoughts were indeed places I would find you every night, every night new Within my reach to seduce you with these my words And more than words, the passion that burns deep in me A love that's more than I can hide Greater than this one body can contain The energy by which all dreams sustain

The heart conspire

Good heart you conspire against the senses To bring yourself to center stage You trick the mind into remembering And passions to burn in sultry fires. Why fret dear heart, shed your desires Don't burn your longing pyre Renewed as your reasons may be Yet find yourself speeding into fortified ire.

love's tenses

if love were to have been -- has been passion's retribution substitution of tactile fractions was to be the end's gaze to be was the multiplication of could that hides in the yesterdays the addition of feelings subdivided, the was of the to will be incapacitated by the are that had been the intrusion of the was to have been in the merry-go-round of the has been lost in the will have been of to be

New Beginnings

Hi G***. The Five of Pentacles is connected to the zodiac earth signs of Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn and relates to a personal crisis with your career, relationship or your health. The New Moon lights up the “Five of Pentacles,” and New Moons bring you into a new beginning. There is a yellow hallow hovering around the New Moon, relating to an enlightening message that you’ll receive or a message that you’ll be delivering! The color of the Pentacles are yellow, relating to the color of the Sun which is numerated zero for a new beginning. The sky is deep blue, and the color blue represents your thoughts. The man’s cloak is burnt orange, a color that represents action, burnout, but also a color of healing. The building is this card is the color green, related to growth, and a new beginning. The archetype in this card is walking away from his temple, his stable foundation because he was forced to, or because he decided it was time to go. Together, all the colors symbolize a new beginni...

The light that feeds the fire

The moon above and stars beyond Which light the firmament In ancient times did guide the hearts of men As I now do look deep within my inner worlds The vaster realms that move my human consciousness Seeking solace in the bright light that burns at the core The fires that guide the words that from his cell the heart does speak-- The love that fuels my universe.

Quote of the Day

Now you know how much my love for you burns deep in me when I forget about our emptiness, and deal with shadows as with solid things. --Dante Alighieri Thus you may understand that love alone is the true seed of every merit in you, and of all acts for which you must atone. --Dante Alighieri “The day that man allows true love to appear, those things which are well made will fall into confusion and will overturn everything we believe to be right and true.” Dante Alighieri - The Divine Comedy

projections

at the junction of yesterday and tomorrow the bright colors of truth against my reflection the dreaming condensation of words rests on the magnification of sentiment-- at the corner of yesterday, the ego waits- bouncing thoughts overwhelm the senses the projections of desire multiply the undertow of imagery drags me along and I find myself in an ocean of longing

Quote of the Day

You will die a thousand times before you wake up feeling alive in your own skin. You will love all the wrong hearts before you realize the strength in your own. -- D. Antoinette Foy

the mask we wear

the mask we wear to commemorate, reverberation of change the fork in the road that hits a dead end the many incantations of desire that saturate the imagination the up and down pacing of strangers absorbs the imagery of loneliness the transient flow of a word embedded in the cacophony of hollowed feelings the echoes that fill the nightly play of shadows. the resonance of memories that play against the imagination the repetition of sounds that colors the day with the exactitude of a scalpel The dreams the mind quickly strives to forget, stained with the intensity of emotions the sexualized aching for closeness buried behind the chants and prayers the repetition of spells to forget, the daily processions of pain sweeter than the bitterest wine the absent hunger that devours it all the body that wants to sleep through its daily celebration of longing the daily parade of ghosts disguised as wanton indifference performing their number in the smiles, smiles, smiles that the ey...

wording

multiplication of errors insemination of ideas corruption of words deception of salutes regurgitation of desires magnification of emotions repetition of pretenses erection of fears penetration of cowardice inception of illusion dissolution of reality absolution of fulfillment

an advent

Hi G---. In Greek Mythology you meet Apollo, the sun god. Apollo wears a golden sun crown on his head decorated with a laurel wreath. He is related to the zodiac sign of Leo (the zodiac sign with a big heart), and the fifth house of your natal birth chart, the area that relates to: fun, romance, sports, entertainment and children. In legend, Apollo teased Cupid about his archery skills which made Cupid angry! Cupid decided to take revenge and teaches Apollo a big lesson (the Sun is related to the Major Arcana, and represents the life lessons you’ll experience). Cupid fired off two love arrows, and the love arrows are infused with love spells to make two people fall in love with each other. However, Cupid dipped the first arrow in a golden love spell, and the second arrow was dipped in bogus love spell. The first love arrow hit Apollo and the second love arrow hit a nymph named Daphne. Apollo instantly fell in love with Daphne, but Daphne ran for the hills, because she wanted to rem...

The idealist

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Quote of the Day

Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia. ::E. L. Doctorow

the gay single's operetta

Winter is icumen in, Lhude sing Goddamm, Raineth drop and staineth slop, And how the wind doth ramm! Sing: Goddamm. --Ezra Pound winter's cold feeds the body's heat the 8th avenue stops that now go to hell's kitchen the slushy streets that mark the semen waiting to shoot the many hearts that go round and round the avenues the pretty gay boys balancing the latest trends on their hips the rugged SRUFFS waiting to exhale the sweat piss cum that drives them juxtaposed against the lonely furlong hearts that retreat into their zero zones the sad ex's who pretend to be happy clowns running in circles the sadder still little gay boys trapped in the bodies of the submissive longing for love but justifying their loneliness with the occasional child's play the friendwithbenefitsfuckbuddy pretend partners who keep their mates trapped the gay play of plays that plays itself incessantly while real male couples scurry away, while gay singletons watch from afar wo...

love is ...

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies. ::Aristotle A flower cannot blossom without sunshine, and man cannot live without love. ::Max Muller Love is... I guess the notion of romantic love, is beyond the reach of physical attraction and sexual desire but encompasses both--in fact encompasses it all -- love is in fact a world to itself ... where love exists, harmony and understanding reign; positive energy flows freely and creates balance; love's energy provides strength to both body and spirit; love's energy satiates the hunger of the spirit; love's energy generates a joy that goes beyond transitory physical pleasures and diversions; love's energy provides stability--makes you feel rooted in your life ... and that is what is meant by "Home is where the heart is" because love makes you feel strong and secure, it edifies the spirit. When you find love, you will have found yourself.

hey, you, stranger, be my valentine

let's run and hide and seek and roll and role and play and sing and dance and say and hold and touch and smooch and climb and hike and drink and cuddle muddle waddle and fuck where to?

summoning

conjure, precunjure, reconjure invoke, revoke, evoke, transvoke summon dark forces & energies and find yourself cursed wading in darkness and isolation, conflict and resentment loneliness and the absence of love-- invoke negative energies and they will magnify-- you will lose yourself in their force the body will age rapidly and fail as parasitic spirits absorb your life force.

Sympathetic Vibration

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People who vibrate at the same frequency, vibrate toward eachother. They call it in science, sympathetic vibrations. Eryka Badu

luna, luna

luna, luna, luna llena escóndeme en tu regazo guárdame luna, luna en tu manantial de luces ayúdame luna, luna a recorrer mi ensueño impúlsame luna, luna hacia los antaños recuerdos luna, luna de mis sueños luna llena de mis fantasías ven, recógeme luna, lunita ayúdame a recorrer de nuevo luna, luna, mi lunita Todas mis viejas esperanzas y luna, luna, mi lunita déjame tu claro en la mañanita.

Quote of the Month

"Forgiving others is often easier than forgiving ourselves. " ::PauloCoelho

Newness

A newfound promise of love rocks my heart The old mumbling has been fading Brighter lights are shining in my path The stagnation of emotions ended The perennial hide and seeks with self Reached its goal New dreams weaved, unfettered by echoes A vision of love beyond my understanding... Everything is as it should be... trusting that the universe leads my path

remembrance

the light burns upon you like a touch of everness portraying a shadow upon the wall a yet unknown image of you have i lost myself in time? you're always quite so new you cast the darkest shadows.

the force that builds, destroys

there's a disturbance in the force, a shift in energies the turbulence of emotions resonates against all waves the echoes magnify the resonance of the heart and bring forth the eruption of memories and feelings. the resonant dissonance of frequency, the wavelengths of discordant forces disturbs the harmony of spirits the radiant energies that hover in higher frequencies settle into minds and hearts--the vision that propels magnifying energies that complement and edify while disrupting discordant, lower frequency energies

untitled

if my life were to be a poem, how would I punctuate it? where would the comas go, the semi-colons? just too many parenthesis and dashes filling the stanzas, just way too many ellipsis loads of analogies, similes and a witty metaphors. the oxymoron would be an ideal figure of speech allegories would not be lacking. a touch of magic realism and the colorful modernism where would it be fitting to place a period? what tense would be appropriate? if my life were to be a poem it would not be a sonnet-- an epigram maybe I've always been fond of the haiku form but too attached to the free-form verses if my life were a poem, what would the theme be? tragic or comic? a satire? maybe a romantic limerick? characters, things and places would all be imaginary in the poem of my life where would i fit? would I appear as a flashback in the stream of consciousness? if my life were to be a poem the ending would most likely be the beginning with many pauses, run-on, awkward sen...

Quote of the Day

"To realize one's destiny is a person's only obligation." ::Paulo Coelho

Purgation

yeah-- purgation is really the best word to use ... it's been a painful process of really looking at myself, my weaknesses, my walls, my defense mechanisms ... more than sheer introspection, it has been a process of opening all the wounds that wouldn't heal--lifting all the neatly laid out bandages, shedding all the old skin ... really, lifting myself out of the mud that has been keeping me in stagnation ... tired of the occasional glimmer of light that always seemed to take me back to the same dark spot; asking myself tirelessly the same questions; wondering why i wasn't happy asking why i couldn't connect -- always the fleeting moment of passion, the physically satisfying sexual encounter that meant nothing more than satisfying a bodily need; the attractions that went nowhere; the love that never materialized ... yeah, tired of living a lie to myself, denying my unhappiness and pretending to those around me that everything was OK, that I was happy ... and the effort o...

Start

Ready set go Start again, push the wall Make fires Ready set go Break the will, conquer it

Awake in time

Awake in time--a memory, a fantasy A dream of you awakens the heart A dream of you moves my desires A dream of you, courage in passion A dream of of you is a love unmoved