energies -- an observation
i recently started on a new job which at first I was a bit skeptical about, but now I realize that it is the perfect place to be at this point in my life... and this realization came after i picked up on how pleasant the people are and the high level of positive energy--truly high vibrations .. it has made a uge difference in my life after the past few years at a job with a very nasty vibe and many very negative people.
At a personal level it has also made me realize that there were people I was dealing with who unloaded on me large quantities of negative energy and/or fed off my positive energy. One person in particular (an example but can be slightly modified to talk about two other individuals--one who is a sex addict and his negative sexual energy is sickening)--although a generally positive person--carried very heavy and sometimes very dark energy -- and sensitive as I am to energy, my mood would change and become volatile. I realized that particularly after the last time I met with this person. I had envisioned a totally different time and outcome from what actually took place. The funny thing is that this person is or was wrapped in an envelop of a heavy, dark or negative energy--discordant energy; energy lacking harmony--but is a very positive and genuinely good person-- a great friend and more to the lucky one But this energy around him was toxic to me and even to those who come near this individual. SOme people have become very angry and resentful toward him and almost without reason--I suppose they cannot help it-- one feels as if possessed. The feeling I often had when in the proximity of this energy was to either flee--it felt as is the energy was very oppressive and depressive--or to fight -- the energy left me with the feeling that I should not re-engage ... in fact, I dare say it was a very primitive type of energy ... an energy that was both emotionally and physically toxic... in fact, this individual is often sick--his positive energy being constantly drained by the source of the negative energy to which he appears to be drawn as a moth is to a flame--and this person knows the source and keeps tapping into it, getting himself weaker both spiritually and physically. As a result, my encounters with this person were often draining as the negative fog that he carries around ate away at my own positive energy. Sometimes it almost felt as there was an exchange of energies were my energy was drained and replaced by the dark matter that this person was carrying around making me feel hostile and or belligerent and horny even (weird). I just hope that this person at some point realizes how he keeps damaging himself by his association to the individual(s) who are distilling negative thoughts and energy their way -- this person is surrounded by many envious and resentful, small minded types who are seeking to take advantage of his trust ...
Now this person I just spoke of is one of 3 particular individuals from whom I have disengaged lately due to their energy levels. This one referred to above was the most painful because this person is the one I most care about-- but perhaps to disengage was necessary for my own personal/emotional growth as well as for their own, I daresay ... sometimes we have to muster the courage to make drastic changes, even if they are painful, to promote spiritual and emotional growth ... life is too short to let negativity, fear, pain and/or discomfort become our comfort zone ... and now I feel I am attracting positive people my way both as friends and as colleagues and hopefully soon as a partner ...
Anyways, I now feel my energy level has risen and I feel both emotionally and physically in a much better place... as I noted once before, it's funny to see people reacting to my face--they smile ... it was taking me aback until I realized that I had a much different countenance lately. And I am getting much more positive reactions from people in my exchanges, and I am getting more eye contact from guys in the street ... of course, I can also say that I have been doing a lot of emotional work -- all works in its own way and at its own time!
At a personal level it has also made me realize that there were people I was dealing with who unloaded on me large quantities of negative energy and/or fed off my positive energy. One person in particular (an example but can be slightly modified to talk about two other individuals--one who is a sex addict and his negative sexual energy is sickening)--although a generally positive person--carried very heavy and sometimes very dark energy -- and sensitive as I am to energy, my mood would change and become volatile. I realized that particularly after the last time I met with this person. I had envisioned a totally different time and outcome from what actually took place. The funny thing is that this person is or was wrapped in an envelop of a heavy, dark or negative energy--discordant energy; energy lacking harmony--but is a very positive and genuinely good person-- a great friend and more to the lucky one But this energy around him was toxic to me and even to those who come near this individual. SOme people have become very angry and resentful toward him and almost without reason--I suppose they cannot help it-- one feels as if possessed. The feeling I often had when in the proximity of this energy was to either flee--it felt as is the energy was very oppressive and depressive--or to fight -- the energy left me with the feeling that I should not re-engage ... in fact, I dare say it was a very primitive type of energy ... an energy that was both emotionally and physically toxic... in fact, this individual is often sick--his positive energy being constantly drained by the source of the negative energy to which he appears to be drawn as a moth is to a flame--and this person knows the source and keeps tapping into it, getting himself weaker both spiritually and physically. As a result, my encounters with this person were often draining as the negative fog that he carries around ate away at my own positive energy. Sometimes it almost felt as there was an exchange of energies were my energy was drained and replaced by the dark matter that this person was carrying around making me feel hostile and or belligerent and horny even (weird). I just hope that this person at some point realizes how he keeps damaging himself by his association to the individual(s) who are distilling negative thoughts and energy their way -- this person is surrounded by many envious and resentful, small minded types who are seeking to take advantage of his trust ...
Now this person I just spoke of is one of 3 particular individuals from whom I have disengaged lately due to their energy levels. This one referred to above was the most painful because this person is the one I most care about-- but perhaps to disengage was necessary for my own personal/emotional growth as well as for their own, I daresay ... sometimes we have to muster the courage to make drastic changes, even if they are painful, to promote spiritual and emotional growth ... life is too short to let negativity, fear, pain and/or discomfort become our comfort zone ... and now I feel I am attracting positive people my way both as friends and as colleagues and hopefully soon as a partner ...
Anyways, I now feel my energy level has risen and I feel both emotionally and physically in a much better place... as I noted once before, it's funny to see people reacting to my face--they smile ... it was taking me aback until I realized that I had a much different countenance lately. And I am getting much more positive reactions from people in my exchanges, and I am getting more eye contact from guys in the street ... of course, I can also say that I have been doing a lot of emotional work -- all works in its own way and at its own time!