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i was looking around i've been looking around already finding the many whys and ifs and the many other walls that i can't look anymore i was waiting, waiting but waiting doesn't reward the one who waits and i've been wanting, wanting something can't put a name on it the something that i was and waited for the moment comes and goes like the flow of time hope and fear blend into each other and the answer lies somewhere in the twilight i know, i have been knowing and now the weigh seems too heavy running just keeps bringing you closer to the thing you're running away from yes! really -- have YOU not noticed yet? stuck in the cycle of want and rejection "but i was going to say when truth broke in with all her matter of fact" that it is not the heart's fault that love goes by the wayside when fear turns to desire again and again and some keep trying to fix the broken pieces that never quite come together so, yeah,...

Justice Hi G***. The Justice card, the 11th card in the Major Arcana, represents equilibrium, balance, connection to everyone and everything, and fairness. This card speaks to Divine justice, a balance between our inner self and our outer self, a balance with it all. Justice is a card that calls to the pros and cons of the situation and determines the middle ground, a ground where the path unfolds for the greatest good of all. Proper balance, just rewards, good intentions, and harmony are the words that this card rings. Can you feel the balance within yourself, in your life, with your relationships? If so this card is reminding you to be aware of the balance to be mindful, and to keep the balance in-tacked. If not, this card is requiring that you step back, find stillness, and restore the balance. Justice also may represent a choice or decision you must make. You are standing in a door, trying to decide if you should walk through, if it is in your best interest. This card reminds...

today I start the day like any other day wrapped in my solitude today I start the day like any other day dreaming up words today I start the day like any other day in sublimation mode today I start the day like any other day looking askance at the many fantasies today I start the day like any other day pretending today I start the day like any other day missing you today I start the day

i recently started on a new job which at first I was a bit skeptical about, but now I realize that it is the perfect place to be at this point in my life... and this realization came after i picked up on how pleasant the people are and the high level of positive energy--truly high vibrations .. it has made a uge difference in my life after the past few years at a job with a very nasty vibe and many very negative people. At a personal level it has also made me realize that there were people I was dealing with who unloaded on me large quantities of negative energy and/or fed off my positive energy. One person in particular (an example but can be slightly modified to talk about two other individuals--one who is a sex addict and his negative sexual energy is sickening)--although a generally positive person--carried very heavy and sometimes very dark energy -- and sensitive as I am to energy, my mood would change and become volatile. I realized that particularly after the last time I met ...

Do you know I still hear you Waves still wash over me, randomly Even the willful resistance to the self-- Even that I feel... And within all the possibilities, why this one? Looking back, I let the chatter box get the upper hand -- so, yeah, I fucked up All my planning for the desired option down the drain because I listened

There's the chatter box, the broken record The automated script that runs itself It prides itself on tangential logic It spins and spins and spins And spins again when the heart speaks-- When the heart says light, it plays itself and shows it darkness When the heart says yes, it plays the many "whatifs" it's collected When the heart wants action, it replays the broken past so skillfully Oh my friends the voices-- do you know I no longer need you Your empty sounds an echo against another time

"As you cultivate the witness, things change. You don't have to change them, things just change."

It doesn't make sense, does it? Not at all -- that I should be awake Doesn't make sense that you occupy my thoughts Doesn't make sense that I still miss you Doesn't make sense anymore Doesn't make sense that my heart still feels for you Doesn't make sense when we never even touched or even said "I love you" It doesn't make sense when your heart and desire are elsewhere It doesn't make sense when they were never mine It doesn't make sense to me Why did we ever meet? It doesn't make sense to me

so recently i met this guy that i thought would be a good potential for dating and maybe see if things could go farther ... he fits the profile of what I like in a guy ... nice personality, cute, good sense of himself, nice open guy, emotionally available ... physically not exactly my match but workable although he doesn't exude sexiness which i look for in terms of sexual compatibility ... after a couple of dates I realized the doesn't have the energy that I'm looking for--in fact, I would dare say that he has little energy ... at least little that I can pick up--so I cannot connect ... that turned out to be the deal breaker ... I cannot connect to this guy emotionally---as much as he likes me physically and even emotionally, I cannot find the energy in him to connect to ... so I was honest and told him that I was not looking for a relationship of even dating, but we could be fuck buddies ... at first he refused, but a few days later he agreed to go that route ... and it...

Knight of Pentacles ~ Perseverance Hi G. Your card today is the Knight of Pentacles. When this card appears in a reading, it may represent someone in your life, an aspect of yourself, or good news regarding an important positive change for you. If this Knight describes someone you know, he is likely to be a young guy between about 21-35, probably with a stable income and a conservative career. Pentacles are connected to the Earth element, so he is likely to be quite grounded and he may even be an earth sign (Virgo, Taurus or Capricorn). This Knight has a strong sense of duty and honour and a kind, loyal heart. He never gives up easily. When the going gets tough, he gets going. He is hardworking and usually quite physically fit. He is loves the outdoors and is happiest spending his days planting the seeds of many Pentacles. These will one day come to fruition and make him a wealthy King. If this card represents an aspect of you, how are you manifesting this masculine Knight energy...

My heart reaching, reaching but my thoughts refusing The body aching, waking but the will ensuing, resting Give it no more thought dear logic requests, dear logic ha Who has set me its prisoner.

A sense of nothingness, the lonesome writes There's no reception, nothing received nothing comes back To glare at so many men that look and smile And smile smile back and talk to this one and that one And wait for a response, not from the articulation of their mouth but from their senses Something beyond the eyes that look, the body that wants To wait for a response to another connection And look and touch and want even And it's sometimes like having that awkward conversation with a stranger who knows you But you can't remember who the stranger is The broken thoughts You don't receive an answer back beyond the words spoke, the gesture of want Yes, we're men and bodies react to bodies But the connection is broken ha ha Feels like the wrong number has been dialed But now you have to engage in polite chat And you wait for the response that goes beyond what the eyes see, the hands that touch And nothing, nothing comes back There's no reception, not...

That the heart protests when it is ignored We already know that's not a myth. That the heart ignites the soul's passions We've all already experienced it. That only the heart can show the way Every man already knows it. That the heart withers when it is forgotten No greater truth have I grown to know.

Monday surprised me abandoned in lust thinking about arms belly hair legs torso Round glutes on masculine frame Smoothness of curves and the scent of a man Reflecting in his eyes the sky sea and dreams Unbridled passion flowing through my veins My blood igniting by the desired face My imagination burning wildly As pearl drops are cast against my body

reach out, out out there with all fingers touch something beyond the zone of terror it's all dead space anyway tightly filled with all the ghosts you've conjured up and collected, a bag of tricks of existence that keeps you entertained on this long, cold road while you sit hidden inside the little box but really i scratch my head again and again watching the juggling acts, the jealously guarded clown walking the tight rope the trapeze artist zooming through the air without a safety net and so many of us watch and wish and do just that .... playing the circus acts to distract ourselves and others walking the tight rope juggling, zooming through the air never facing the mirror it all seems like a grand adventure, doesn't it? it takes courage to be the circus clown anything, anything rather than touching the wanton heart. what else is there in our bag of tricks to entertain love away?

Dawn is fast dripping away And you're somewhere out there painted in thoughts And waves come and go Anger lust love want melancholy Why is it so hard, I keep asking myself But it isn't