regrets

not listening to my intuition
not listening to my heart
letting my lust for another keep me from reaching out to you
using lust to escape from my feelings
letting perception get in the way
denying my feelings to myself -letting them stagnate
being with someone I didn't care for because it was easy
not understanding my frustration (see previous line)
letting my frustration get the better of me
pretending that I don't need/want your affection
"controlling" my desire for you
not letting myself love you the way I want to
not loving you the way I know you need/want to be loved.

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