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not listening to my intuition not listening to my heart letting my lust for another keep me from reaching out to you using lust to escape from my feelings letting perception get in the way denying my feelings to myself -letting them stagnate being with someone I didn't care for because it was easy not understanding my frustration (see previous line) letting my frustration get the better of me pretending that I don't need/want your affection "controlling" my desire for you not letting myself love you the way I want to not loving you the way I know you need/want to be loved.

in the mathematics of love, the senses multiply—arms are added to legs, lips to neck, lips against lips results in a hunger, tongue against burning tongue hands run the surface of the body—a magic rhythm of hidden desires igniting nerves, exploring thighs, muscles stretch an contract, curves are discovered, unknown angles found hidden yearnings come to life the sexes are lost in mysterious depths burning bodies fueled by their own fires distill magnetic energies — and matter is confused in irradiant delights we get lost in this eternity there’s no you or I in this equation--

stop the song playing in your head. fear to face the face ... fear to reach out ... fear to open up ... aha! fear to be opened up ... fear that too much will happen ... fear that nothing will happen ... fear of trusting ... fear to lose control ... fear of silence, fear of talking ... silence ...  fear of wanting too much, not wanting enough ... fear of not being wanted ... fear of the intensity of it all ... fear of the fear itself ... stop the song playing in your head. stop ... dodge ... revert ... retrace ... re-start ... re-invent disarm the self ... take the walls down ... remain silent ... refrain from action ... don't react ... don't run ... embrace the fear ... eat it up ... take the wall down again ... now ... stop the song playing in your head. let go ... don't hold on too tight ... this is not what was ...  let those pieces go ... move outside that circle ... let the pieces fall ... pick up brand new pieces ... close your eyes ... walk ahead ... talk ...