That Homosexual
reality conjured by mirrors a staged life trapped in uncontrolled desires re-enacting past pains to derive pleasures-- love transformed into unsatisfying lust the desolate loneliness of suppressed emotions denial learned in sullen solitude now stuck in a waiting game- waiting, waiting, begging to be desired with love forgotten, ignored, unknown waiting, waiting, no time no time, must be free to be had and loaded waiting waiting for that fleeting high where he feels wanted, if just for a moment ... only to replay the dance